Who knows? But let me try to understand it or at least talk about it. Love….. I used to say among my loud laughs, “ if you smile as soon as you remember someone then that’s love”. Ok, May be that was a relevant definition at some point. When life was simple and to be honest, I was always smiling back then. So what is love? I won’t mention the butterflies in my stomach, ha ha. And I won’t also mention the sudden bitter tears that used to intrude into my quiet moments in the most unexpected ways.
Longing! May be longing is easier to describe. Longing simply means that I miss living and reliving specific moments with someone, the laughs, the songs, the excitement and the care. Care? Love is care! May be. I feel lost, caring as a feeling is there, of course caring is one of the main ingredients of that magical recipe that people naively call love. However caring always seeps away, it does this gradually as it is replaced by the humiliating fact that we became for granted or that, simply we are done with that “love” phase.
People always speak about the pain of love, I agree, it painful, severely painful. It is elusive, once you feel it, it fades quickly to leave you with memories of exaggerated happiness and pleasure.
May be that what it really is, a mirage, an illusion or even a mere dream that we try to create for some time, a few moments, or days or years. May be we have to appreciate these random feelings, cherish them and pray to enjoy the taste of love once more.
