In one of my dreams tonight, it seemed that I reached nirvana,
a state of enlightenment or in other words, I understood the essence of life.
It is all about FEAR. Yes, fear, simple, it is all about fear. It is the only constant
feeling that haunts us from the very beginning to the last breath, the fear of
everything, from everything and of and about everyone. Both the good achievements
and the terrible failures result from fear. We worship God out of fear, we kill
others out of fear! We fall in love out of fear, the fear of loneliness, one of
the bitter types of fear. We develop various illnesses, again, because of fear,
just think of migraines, these wicked migraines, aren’t they, how our bodies translate
their fears in a primitive yet painful way?
In that dream, it all seemed clear! If at the end of the
story, no matter the story was a short or a long one, everything will be lost,
our possessions, our health, our memories, and the containers that we called
them our bodies, everything will be lost, our beloved places and most cruelly
our beloved ones. We will have vague memories of our long - sometimes boring -lives,
only mirages of our realities. So, why cant we just take a breath, smile and
enjoy the ride, and kick FEAR out of our lives, till it shrewdly seeps back
again.
I had a good sleep, I woke up in a good mood, I enjoyed a
hearty breakfast, now sipping my coffee and trying to remember that it has
always been fear. I am looking forward to having another moment of enlightenment
and hopefully that time I will be awake!