Friday, 25 June 2021

They say some men are gifted with words, but you are gifted with silence. Your silence, what a mixture of wisdom, indifference and aggression! May be it’s your way to stop the marching of my already defeated army.
I know that I should surrender, I should have surrendered more than a decade ago. Yet the half hero that I failed to be, became addicted to grief, pain and despair. Is my salvation tied to your presence or disappearance, your words or silence?
Am I destined to decipher your silence, calculate the long, boring and humiliating intervals between your few words?
You refused the throne, the crown and all the praise I could say, you refused everything but kept that strong mysterious thread of silence.

Here I am, sitting alone, recalling your few words, remembering the sarcasm, the criticism and the accusations with a delusional mind.

Here I am, sitting alone, lost in an eternal grey hue, somewhere far from purity yet not that close from the darkness of sins.

Here I am, sitting alone, dreaming of a different beginning, a new chance or even another life.

Wednesday, 7 October 2020

Everything started by his smile, the childish smile that revealed how handsome this young man was. The sun shined from his eyes, the beautiful almond shaped eyes that were guarded by faint wrinkles. These wrinkles and a dozen of grey hairs dispersed on his beard gave him a mannish look. An irresistible look.

Innocence? Did I tell you how innocent he is? Wait till you hear his voice.... a happy melody where very few melancholic tunes hid.

Kindness? believe me he is the kindest man on earth. His Caring gazes and tender grimaces haunt you for a thousand night.

Once I laughed and told him that he was too good to be real. He blushed, answered with one of his charming smiles, and left me in utter despair.

An angel.... a prince.... or someone like no other.... a mirage or a dream.....may be one day I will be able to say!